today sucks

I try pretty hard to get around the self-pity stuff when it comes to Holden and autism. For the most part, I'm motivated, dedicated, and optimistic for his recovery. Every once in a while, there are days when things don't seem to be going right. I think this process has really taught me to be "in-tune" with him...what he's feeling, if he's hurting, happy, etc. And today, my gut tells me that something's just not right with him. He's been off anti-fungals, probiotics, and MB12 shots for almost 2 weeks now. It's really taking a toll on him, I can tell. He's not sleeping. He's crying, as if he's hurting. He's holding his stomach. And I know that if he could just TELL me how he feels, he would tell me that he's a mess inside.

I have an appointment with our DAN today at 4:30. I have to get him back on track. I need my boy back.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I know what you mean, but sorry that you are dealing with it. hope the appointment goes well. your son seems to be making such promising progress, it is soooo hard to see it stall out.